She selected an easy way.
03/03/(22/00)
Dear friend called to me today.
She gets married in June.
I was surprised very much.
Why ?
I thought that she doesn't get married.
Because she was saying that doesn't get married.
She was a playgirl.
She had many boyfriends always.
She was wearing a miniskirt throughout the year.
Therefore she caught a cold always.
She wore a miniskirt even at the time of the cold.
Ha ha ha ...
She told about many boyfriends to everybody.
She disliked a child very much.
Therefore the women of most alienated her.
But I didn't alienate her.
Because I was envious of she very much.
She very beautiful.
Her style very beautiful.
I thought that her style is most beautiful in my friends.
She was an excellent business woman.
She laughed aloud always.
She was cheerful.
I asked " Why do you get married? " of her.
She answered it.
"Because he wants to get married.
I am not disagreeable him.
He is a son of a noble.
I got acquainted with him by my job.
My job was deadlocking.
My future was beginning to lose self-confidence.
But he understood my job.
I get married and make my company. "
I could not answer it for a while.
I asked " Do you want to have a child? ".
She answered it.
" I want to have a child of course.
I want to have my family.
I will have many children.
I can become a happy woman at last.
I am very happy now.
Please come in Tokyo for the wedding ceremony ."
I didn't agree because I have the day very important business.
I might have been cold a little bit.
I would have agreed probably if I am staying at Tokyo even now.
Heart of the human being changes coolly in a city.
I retook the heart of the human being after I come in a village.
I recalled squalid Tokyo.
First adventure started this year.
03/04/(21/48)
Spring seems to have also come along at last to me.
Does my spring seem to have come faster than other persons?
Or does my spring seem to have come late than other persons?
Image of my sweetheart began to appeared in my heart.
I will paint the image while being careful.
I don't want to fall in hell like last year.
I never give up the future.
The sweetheart also will never give up it probably.
I venture the world of the image with Anomalocaris this year.
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Anomalocaris said it.
" I knew only the sea once.
A certain day, I went after a game to the edge of the sea.
The game may wanted to live greatly.
The game jumped up in the sea suddenly and left from the sea.
The game arrived at land.
The game was struggling necessitously.
And the game stopped working.
I was gazing at the game for long patiently.
I wanted to see the game near.
Therefore I jumped the game nearly.
My body became crimson soon.
I could not breathe.
Oxygen was full on the sea.
I could not breathe with oxygen.
I returned in the sea necessitously.
I was able to return in the sea at last.
I thought that it is a very dreadful place on the sea.
A certain day, I came there.
I hid because a game came there.
The game jumped up in the sea and was walking land.
I was surprised very much.
I was envious of the game.
But I didn't aim at land.
I was the ruler of the sea.
Therefore I needed not to escape from the sea.
Then, I came there sometimes.
A certain day, I looked up right above.
I looked at the sky for the first time.
I yearned for the sky very much.
And I am gazing at the sky from the sea always.
I want to swim the sky. "
Anomalocaris said " What do you want to become? " to me.
I said " I also want to swim the sky" .
I changed a bird suddenly.
I swam the sky with Anomalocaris.
Anomalocaris said " Where do you want to go? " to me.
I said " I want to be swimming in the place of my sweetheart" .
We were swimming in the place of the sweetheart.
I am seen the figure of the sweetheart.
He notices us and looked at us .
He could not see Anomalocaris.
He gazed at the bird for long patiently.
I gazed at his eyes for long patiently.
Anomalocaris said " Did you look at him? " to me.
I said " Yes, I saw his eyes for the first time" .
Anomalocaris said " Do you want to see other parts still? " to me.
I said " No, I want to see it little by little" .
Anomalocaris said " Were you stay still here? " to me.
I said " No, I enjoyed the sufficient first day" .
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Curtain of new adventure opened now.
I pray that I can paint a nice sweetheart.
Welcome! Anomalocaris!!
Sad event continues.
03/06/(22/54)
Many young children are starving to death in Japan recently.
Because the parents without being giving a satisfactory meal to the child of oneself.
The child of oneself is more important than the life of oneself to the parents.
Why such an event frequently occur?
What be breaking out in the background?
3 youngsters who got acquainted with mail also committed suicide in the last week.
3 youngsters also committed suicide today.
Cann't they see future?
How have they grown until now?
I thought suicide when am 13 year-old.
Because I didn't want to become a dirty grown-up.
I was reading full philosophical books.
But I couldn't find the answer.
Older sister saved such me.
I might have committed suicide if the older sister doesn't save me.
I didn't let go of a picture book when am 1 year-old.
I was favorite to read many books until 10 years old.
I was favorite to play many musical instruments from 11 years old.
I was together with many friends when am playing the musical instrument.
It may be none to induce suicide by play the musical instrument.
I was reading a book sometimes.
I was lonely when am reading a book.
Book offers a strong influence.
Such book that induces suicide exists ofcourse.
Japanese says " Poor person makes full a child" .
Sure, poor person seems to be making many children.
Why does the poor person make full children?
Can they give good education to the children?
What is the good education?
Is it a good university?
Is it a good teacher?
Is it the education of parents?
The divorce of the woman that had a child is increasing.
The mother starts cohabitation with a new sweetheart.
The mother admits the ill-treatment to the child of the sweetheart.
The child loses the place where escapes.
Heart of the child shuts external world quickly.
The sweetheart becomes hate the child quickly.
The sweetheart tries to kill the child.
The child requests help to the mother once again last.
But the mother chooses the sweetheart than the child.
Rich of 2 types exists.
Rich of 1 type is true rich.
Their heart is richest.
They are receiving real high education.
Therefore they make most important confidence.
They solve all with the confidence of each other.
They absolutely don't tell a lie.
They never move for only money.
Rich of 1 type is charlatan rich.
Their heart ugliest.
They aren't receiving real high education.
Therefore they make most important money.
They solve all with money.
They tell a lie easily.
They do whatever murder, fraud, for money.
I understood recently.
Case that divorces and a wife abandons a husband is increasing most.
The males who divorced don't know the reason without fail.
They would not divorce if they know the reason.
Namely, they didn't know about the wife much.
Ha ha ha... It was a easy answer!
I don't want to get married to such male.
My apartment was seized.
03/10/(00/22)
I became must move soon.
Possession company of the apartment which I live went bankrupt.
Company was a trading company.
I didn't know the company.
I know only that the company was a trading company.
Because a control company was managing the apartment.
Court of justice seized the apartment.
I heard explanation from a court of justice today.
I became must move until January of next year.
Ha ha ha...
It was the first experience to me.
I felt realistically inactivity again.
I cann't escape already.
I will master English by the end of this year.
I dislike a telephone very much.
Therefore I have answered only job telephone.
Therefore I didn't answer the telephone of penpals all.
But I will have to answer the telephone.
Aaaa!! My feeling heavy....
Why?
Cold sweat flows when I am speaking in English.
Read, Write, Speak, hear English.
I can read English very much.
I can write English already.
I can speak English only a little.
But I cann't hear English at all.
Japanese speaks clearness.
Japanese speaks with the mouth.
But Foreigners don't speak clearness.
Foreigners speak with the tongue.
It looks like mysterious to the foreigner!!
I am hearing the news of English every day.
I am hearing many English lessons by TV every day.
But I don't improve at all.
I will change this chance into a good opportunity.
I don't escape from the telephone anymore.
But only a sweetheart will call because the telephone costs a lot.
Wow!! I didn't still have my sweetheart.
Ha ha ha ...
Therefore I want to search the sweetheart who calls to me.
I must search the sweetheart from this by Internet.
I search my sweetheart seriously after all!!
Can I find the sweetheart?
I am a little anxious.
I am expecting that I can find.
Smile ^^
Life is mountain climbing.
03/10/(21/42)
I said it to Anomalocaris.
" I am walking a cliff pool always but I am not dreadful.
I think sometimes that I am a strong woman.
But I think sometimes that I am a very weak woman.
I cann't very bear solitude sometimes.
I am feeling solitude always.
Why is my heart lonely always? "
Anomalocaris said it.
" All the persons must continue the fight of solitude.
Weak person tries to escape from the fight of solitude.
Therefore the weak person is defeated solitude easily.
Life is the fight of oneself.
The person must not escape from the fight even if s/he is painful.
Strong person is shouldering the fight of solitude.
Strong person never escapes from oneself.
Strong person doesn't understand in the word of the others.
Strong person is opening up the word of oneself always.
Therefore the strong person doesn't fawn on the others.
Strong person is walking a cliff pool always.
And the strong person is looking at the cliff pool always.
Therefore the strong person knows the fear of the cliff pool.
Let's recall! The method that solitude becomes friend of oneself!
All the persons have the immunity when was born. "
Premonition of love.
03/11/(00/13)
Does my sweetheart appear before me?
I such feeling that the sweetheart appears this year.
I want to expect it.
And the sweetheart may very gentle to me!!
My friends who have the sweetheart say it.
"I am the happiest woman in the world.
Because my sweetheart makes me the happiest woman in the world.
Therefore the sweetheart is the nicest man in the world. "
Aaa ...I want such sweetheart.
The lake has become enjoyable.
03/12/(23/18)
I was jogging the lake.
It was spring today.
The sun was dazzling very much.
The cloud was none.
Many persons were sleeping with the side because it was very warm.
I had passed the side of the persons.
I found a very nice couple.
The couple was connecting the hand.
The sight very refreshing.
I wanted to see the face of the couple when I had passed the side of the couple.
But I didn't see the face of the couple.
Why ?
Ha ha ha ..
I didn't want to hinder the relations of the couple.
The couple was seeing the figure after me patiently.
My back felt hotly to the eyes of the couple.
I jogged while seeing pretty flowers.
2 Butterflies were flying.
The butterflies looked like a sweetheart.
The butterflies flew with me for a while.
The butterflies seemed to be saying " Hello!! " to me.
The female may be flying the front.
The male may be going after the female.
The lake became the Heaven of sweetheart completely.
My heart also bounded.
Why ?
Because my imagination is swelling out boundlessly.
My God!! Permitting give!
03/16/(13/52)
We have been seen the mechanism of the world of now.
We have been seen the history of the human being.
The human being is trying to write a sad point to history now.
We will become the eye witness of sad history.
We couldn't stop the war.
Are we seeing the war merely?
How do we think while being seeing the war?
Must we give up?
We know it already.
The war kills many human beings.
Many human beings will hate the war more.
Door of hatred opened by the war.
Fight of long hatred begins from this.
Everyone cann't stop the fight.
Soul of many human beings work with the war.
The war recalled the soul of hatred.
We know it now.
But we couldn't shut the door.
My God! Grieve over our foolishness.
The sage couldn't restrain the idiot.
This is the future of the human being.
My life.
03/16/(21/31)
I asked it to Anomalocaris.
" I am learning the history of a war now.
The human being of now cann't slough off from an animal society still.
Can the human being slough off from an animal society someday? "
Anomalocaris answered it.
" It may be unreasonable as it is.
The human being cann't slough off naturally from an animal society.
The human being must hope that s/he wants to slough off really.
Apathetic human beings still too many.
Therefore the human being may be poured without doing at all.
Can the sages recall the apathetic human beings?
May be the sages will cann't recall it.
History of the earth will repeat it faithfully.
Ruler of the earth disappears without fail.
Human being will not have the wisdom that changes the rule.
Mankind also perish someday.
You don't worry about future.
You cann't change it even if you worry about future.
Therefore you think only yourself happiness and live cheerfully.
Your life only now. "
How do you think?
I began to walk in darkness.
03/17/(00/02)
I want to walk a beach alone very much.
I want to walk without thinking anything.
But my eyes will pour many tears.
I will not wipe the tears.
Why?
Because only my tears are honest.
My brain got tired to that thinks.
My heart got tired to that attaches the damage more.
My body wore out too much.
My face lost the smiling face.
My father!! My mother!!
I lost self-confidence.
I don't want to see the future of the human being from this.
I became cann't expect in the future of the human being.
Can I be living from this?
My father will say it probably.
I am not bringing up such weak child.
You have overcome even all the adversity.
You will never give up it.
I will never give up on you.
Please become a stronger human being!!
Please think more!
You will be seen slight new light probably.
It was a sad event.
03/20/(23/52)
The war started to enforcement today.
People of the world are not instructing the war.
But the Governments 35 countries seem to be instructing the war.
It was only 30 before a little.
But the citizens of the countries are so as not to be instructing.
The Government of Japan is also instructing of course.
But the citizens of Japan also aren't instructing of course.
8 Japanese also had gone out in Iraq Today.
They become the shield of a human being of course.
The Government tried to persuade them.
But they don't seem to have agreed the persuasion.
The people of USA seem to be instructing the war.
But my penpals of USA are not instructing.
The war is abnormal.
I received a photo by E-mail.
I couldn't see the photo.
I thought to send the photo by E-mail.
I was thinking about her of the photo.
May be she would have been regret.
She was the volunteer of USA.
She goes at Palestine and surprised.
The government of Israel was killing children of Palestine.
President of USA said that the leader of Israel is a hero.
She said that it is a mistake.
And she said " They aren't acting for the citizens of Israel and Palestine" .
But the Government of Israel killed her of USA.
Oh! my God!!
My savior.
03/21/(03/09)
My prince!
Where are you?
You may be a hero probably.
You will wrap my grief.
You will not give up it probably.
You may be a very strong male.
You will wrap me strongly.
May be......
You will talk at my soul.
" I can heal your soul.
I put out it with water if fire burns.
You are burning now. "
My prince! Please save this world now!!
Here is inside of the swirl of new reform.
03/24/(23/28)
The antiwar is spreading quickly.
50,000 antiwar demonstration were yesterday in Tokyo.
Japanese held such a big demonstration for the first time.
Ha ha ha..
I thought that Japanese of most are a cold race until now.
I was surprised very much.
And I very glad.
My heart throbbed.
Tears flowed from my eyes.
People of the world seem to be thinking future seriously.
We want the future without a war.
A war is not necessary any more to us.
World seems to have entered into the edge of the swirl of new reform.
I recalled a swindler.
03/25/(12/10)
Children say purely.
Why the same human being each other kills?
Are we the same as a chimpanzee?
Chimpanzee is a fierce animal although it is seen quietly.
Even the human being resemblesb it.
Oh! I know such human being.
It is a swindler.
A swindler deceived me ruthlessly when I lived in Tokyo for the first time.
Even 1 week still hadn't passed after I live in a apartment.
The swindler deceives the person who has gone to Tokyo from a village.
I met the swindler for the first time.
Ha ha ha..It cann't boast.
The swindler was seen to a really good person.
The swindler was courteous and modest.
I bought a digestive organ at 30,000 yen from the swindler.
The digestive organ had been attached in my apartment already.
The swindler said " I am a government official" .
I remember the face of the swindler dimly even now.
I knew the swindler firmly.
I became very prudent then.
I am sad that the persons who don't understand Real Peace exist.
03/25/(19/21)
I hear as " The war for peace" and got furious a little.
I have heard many boos for Real Peace.
I saddest the word.
Does the war kill full the dream in future for peace?
The war is killing pretty babies!!
I was not going to disclose photo.
My heart changed now.
I disclose the photo by the word.
This is the result of a war.
Death of babies will not give birth for peace.
The war isn't for Real Peace.
The photos very uncanny.
The person whose heart is weak shall not see it.
I never give up.
03/25/(20/03)
People of the world wish peace.
But part of persons wish only self peace.
U. S. and Uk armed forces rush into the big city of Iraq soon.
People of the world know that many soldiers die.
People of the world know that many citizens die.
My God!! Please give Heaven's vengeance to us.
We are tacitly permitting many death.
We are grieving over " Our power didn't reach" .
I very mortifying.
Tears began to flow.
But I don't want to give up.
We mustn't forget this tragedy.
We mustn't repeat this tragedy once again.
We must call to the people of the world more.
No War!!
TV.
03/27/(19/52)
Japanese can see the news of many countries by TV in Japan.
USA, France, Germany, Qatar, Russia, China, Korea, UK, Spain, Philippines, Vietnam, Singapore, Hong Kong, Thailand.
Democratization of information started at last also in Japan.
Before, information of Japan was incline very much.
Japanese who lives abroad was such saying always.
Japanese has come to be able to judge exact information by seeing TV of the world.
But TV of USA of recently is tired very much.
Because these information are incline to the USA armed forces very much.
I thought as USA is brainwashing it.
People of USA may be seeing these TV every day probably.
And my brain became painful when I see TV of USA gradually.
Therefore I have come to don't see TV of USA now.
War supporter seems to cann't understand the purpose of the antiwar.
Antiwar person aren't getting active for Sadam Hussen.
Antiwar person aren't admitting dictatorship.
Antiwar person aren't admitting terrorism.
Antiwar person aren't admitting only the deed of a War.
Enemy people and Collaborative people don't exist in Antiwar person.
Antiwar person are looking at all the people equally.
Part of persons seem to cann't look at all the people equally.
But the persons have held the power of the world without knowing it.
Or the persons showed the figure from underground finally?
History is evolving certainly.
03/30/(19/00)
Anomalocaris!! Don't you know the water that heals my heart?
My heart doesn't clear up for long.
I am crying while looking at the persons who are going to die by the war every day.
Why? Why?
I am seeing the gear of the world that went mad now.
Why the gear of the world go mad?
Who have changed USA into such country?
Government of France said " We have made such USA" .
Sure, world was fawning on USA Until now.
World went arriving at USA.
I liked previous USA very much.
But I am dreadful USA of now very much.
I have penpals of many USA even now.
I am very favorite them even now without changing.
Therefore I sad more.
I know that the people of the world are beginning to become disagreeable USA now.
I hope the reconciliation of the world soon.
Please don't stretch maintenance anymore.
Please have the courage that escapes.
Anomalocaris said it.
" Do you know why is the history of a war repeated?
History has conveyed only the proposer of a war until now.
Sure, the proposer of a war may be worst.
Part of people complained of an antiwar.
But the people of most continued silence.
Part of people are complaining of the antiwar now.
But there is still little the population.
The human being has the wisdom that climbs the big wall.
Next, the human being may be can climb the big wall probably.
Sure, the people of the world know that the proposers of the war are defeated with the next election without fail already.
This world is evolving continually.
This world cann't return in the past.
This world is doing a new experience.
Can the human beings make the most of the experience?
I think that the human beings can make the most of the experience.
Because the pattern of the war doesn't exist in history.
Namely, the human beings were able to erase the pattern of the war in the past.
Therefore, the human beings also may be can erase the pattern of the war.
I fear most that the human beings give up it.
The challenge of the human beings continues still.
You must believe the human beings more.
The Human beings never are foolish.
You mustn't give up the challenge."
Qualification of the human being.
03/31/(00/44)
My sweetheart may be the male who loves peace most probably.
My sweetheart may be the male who can love all the people equally probably.
My sweetheart may be the male who dislikes a war most probably.
My sweetheart may be the male who continues to think the peace of the world seriously.
My sweetheart may be the male who has the most beautiful heart in the world.
Ah! I search such male.
Ha ha ha...
It may very difficult.
Heart of the women of most attached a damage very much.
Women of the world said " Doesn't the prince of the star turn up? ".
I also want to meet the prince, too.
I talk about the war with friends every day.
A said " Miserable males increased" .
B said " Yes, males who don't want to talk about the war exist" .
C said " Yes, they don't grieve over the death of the others at all" .
D said " I don't meet the gentle male of heart recently" .
A said " Yes, they permit violence" .
C said " Yes, such race is remaining in the male" .
D said " I dislike the barbarian very much" .
The conversation rose very much.
Ha ha ha...
I also dislike the male who disregards the war.