2002/11 .

Weakness of myself .

11/05/(20/16)

I have come to be able to stand at last .
I did not have the time when feels solitude .
I worried about only my foot .
Ha ha ha ...I such feeling that I stop setting up as it is .
I had not worried about the body of myself as this .

Friends worried about it and said always .
" Did you become a little good today ? "
First , my heart had a margin .
Therefore I said " I became a little good " to friends .
But my heart had lost the margin gradually .
I such feeling that my foot is bad gradually .
I was can not talk it anyone already .
I knew what friends worry about more if I tell it to friends .
Last , I said " I do not become good every day so " to friends .

My foot has become good at last .
I did not tell the conflict of my heart to friends .

My Pegasus ! I knew that don't understand myself .
I seem to have been overestimating myself .

The Pegasus said .
Your friends will be waiting for to stand with the foot of yourself .
You must stand with the foot of yourself .
You knew 1 weakness of yourself .
You fought with the weakness of yourself .
The weakness will strengthen you .
You must walk while facing the top .



Angel of a piano .

11/05/(22/10)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



The prejudice disappears someday !

11/10/(19/09)

The person has a prejudice .
The persons who have a prejudice in the country of somewhere are existing .
The prejudices to other religions .
The prejudices to the people of other countries .
The prejudice to the homosexual , the lesbian .
The prejudice to the handicapped person .
The prejudices to other races .
The prejudice to the poor person , the homeless .

The person who voices the prejudice head-on .
The person who voices the prejudice from the back .

My Pegasus ! Why can not the people discard the prejudice ?

The Pegasus said .
The people want to defend the existence of oneself by having the prejudice .
The animal kill other creatures for defend oneself .
The human being kill other creatures for also defend oneself .
And the human being have come to be able to have affection to other creatures at last .

The human being began to think now .
Which does the human being choose oneself or other creatures ? Can the human being make oneself the sacrifice for other creatures ?
But the human being can not make oneself the sacrifice still .
And the human being is fitting into the dilemma now .

The human being are starting evolution certainly !
Therefore the human being good if s/he thinks more ...
Therefore the human being good if s/he discusses more ..
Because the human being knows future already .



Invention is great !

11/10/(19/55)

The civilization evolved by the invention .
A person invented a train .
A person invented a ship .
A person invented electricity .
A person invented a radio .
A person invented a washing machine .
A person invented a refrigerator .
A person invented a television .
A person invented a car .
A person invented a computer .
A person invented an airplane .
A person invented a microwave oven .
A person invented a spaces shuttle .
A person invented the Internet .

The person stopped the invention .

My Pegasus ! Did the person become can not the invention ?

The Pegasus said .
People have forgotten the greatness of the invention .

Once , people liked the invention very much .
The people were going after a dream .

Now , people like a trip very much .
Now , people like to spend cheerfully .
The people are incorporated to a part of a society .
The society took the dream of people .
And the people are absorbed only to the recreation that the society was given .
The people are satisfied the dream that the society made so !
The people of most became stupid now .

The society is wringing the neck of oneself with oneself .
But a hero will show up in the society someday !
The era will call the hero without fail .
A person will start a new invention once again !!



The trip of adventure .

11/10/(20/41)

My foot does not hurt already .
I will start rehabilitation from tomorrow .
But I may be a poor woman probably now .
Why ?
My heart was able to have rest at last now .
I want healing my heart .

I talk with males only the Internet .
The males say a gentle word to me .
The males say the same word as women always .
The woman who does not have immunity misunderstands their word .
All the women have a true word .
Women of most want to expect a true word .
But the women of most are betrayed to the word .
I also knew it by the Internet .

The word is the word of exclusive devotion .
The word does not have love .
I do not feel love to the word .
Only a real sweetheart will know the word that heals my heart .
I want the love of the sweetheart .
I do not have the partner .
Anyone is not at the side of me .

My Pegasus ! I became fine at last .
Please also take me to the trip of adventure !
I am likely to have fallen into male fear heart .
But I want to believe still .
A real sweetheart is existing in this world somewhere without fail probably !

The Pegasus said .
Let's take to the trip of adventure !



Let's go the trip of adventure .

11/12/(20/02)

I went to the grave worship of my parents with my Pegasus .
I said it to the parents .
" This year also ends soon .
I am likely to end in a worst year in a worst year this year .
I saw many murder this year .
My God does not hear my voice even if I cry out such aloud .
But I want to believe my God none the less .
I cann't live if I don't believe my God none the less .
I go out to the trip to search the answer from now .
And I want to tighten this year with the trip .
My father ! My mother ! I will do it now ! "

I said it to the Pegasus .
" You showed many dreams and reality to me .
You gave supported me very much .
But I couldn't master all in 1 year .
I cann't part in this year with you .
I love you really !
I don't want to lose you this year .
Only you are to me .
I don't want to return alone once again .
Would you stay at the side of me until I can part with you ? "

The Pegasus said .
" I don't know the answer now .
We will know the answer by the trip .
I want to help your growth .
I am your father , your mother , your sweetheart , your mentor .
Let's go out to the trip of adventure ! "



The highest mountain in the world .

11/12/(20/58)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



The boy who became thin .

11/13/(18/16)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



The lady who is thinking divorce .

11/14/(23/13)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Trip of history .

11/15/(23/09)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Trip of love .

11/16/(21/17)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Heart of a pure boy .

11/18/(19/22)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Tears of the lady .

11/18/(20/37)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Various males .

11/20/(17/54)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Various famales .

11/21/(11/36)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



Dangerous lake .

11/21/(21/57)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



The house of the mountain .

11/22/(20/56)

Here moved to the corner of stories .



I began to walk .

11/23/(20/11)

I became able to walk mostly .
I could walk only 2 times in a week .
I have come to be able to walk about 4 times in a week .
I think that I can walk every day already .
I am able to walk slowly already .
I cann't walk a little fast .
Right foot has walked while dragging .
I don't overdo because have anxiety a little .

I hadn't felt such enjoyable when walk .
Scenery is changing by my each step .

I feel that birds are seeing my each step .
I feel that cats are worrying about my each step .
I feel that dogs are away from my each step .
Refreshing wind cools my face .

I like this lake after all .
My heart settles really when I come here heart .
I was able to return finally here .
I feel that the lake is glad it .
This lake also will be saying " Oh ! Come back !" to me probably .
I said " I may be can show the figure of jogging soon " to the lake .



Christmas comes soon .

11/27/(22/26)

I am making the image of the Christmas plan from this week .
Therefore I wrote this diary hardly .
And I must terminate even this story .
I will start the Christmas plan from December in my Web .

Many people will be waiting the Christmas .
Sweetheart of the world will dress up most in a year .
Persons who don't still have a sweetheart will get a nice sweetheart .
The Cupid may very busy in the Christmas .
The Cupid are hustling about the world present .

I will spend the Christmas with friends also this year ordinary .
Japan is bad more than last year .
We will tell the future of Japan ordinary .
And we will tell the future of oneself .
A friend who settles down in Europe next year comes along this year .
She comes along to our Christmas for the first time .
She seems to go to the Christmas of many friends this year .
Ha ha ha ...She also can not drink alcohol .
Me too !

She also likes a cake and chocolate very much .
Males of Japanese don't like a cake and chocolate much .
Why do the women like the cake and chocolate ?
What kind of cake do penpals of the world eat ?
I want to know it very much !
Ha ha ha ....