My imagination also started an activity now .

07/01/(23/34)

My body is safe already .
And my heart want to beautiful love now .
Therefore I have come to be able to imagine the sweetheart in my future now .

Ohhh ! My lover ! Where are you now ?
I want to walk the sea with the person who loves .
I want to be looking at the horizon of the sea with the person who loves .
The person who loves said to me .
Our future is existing over there !

I want to monopolize you .
I want your eyes .
Please see me more !!
You understand that my lips are suing something ?
You understand that my eyes look lonely ?
I want to love you intensively !!!
I may be can destroy you .
You will hope that are destroyed by me probably .
you will not fear death for me probably .
Why ?
I will not fear death for you probably .
I am waiting patiently for you .
And you also are waiting patiently for me .

You said .
I thought that I die while waiting patiently as it is .
And I thought that I fade away from your front as it is .
Oh ! My body stops working when I feel you .
Aaa ! You have invaded little by little into my heart .
Oh , NO ! Your existence is becoming big quickly in my heart !!
You are becoming my hope .
You are my sun itself !!

I said .
I am becoming beautiful by your word .
Your word is changing me .
Your word does unhappy women happily .
Your word wipes the tears of the women that are crying .
You are worn out because worry about me .
Therefore I want to wrap your body .
I want to become your goddess !!

Our dream .

07/04/(22/26)

Very hot Now !!
Summer came substantially .
I like summer very much because I was born in a southern country .
I went to the various sea in Japan .
The sea very near because Japan is an island country .
I liked the sea of Okinawa .
I have not gone to the sea of Hawaii .
My older sister has not also gone to Hawaii .
I and older sister have not gone out overseas .
The sister does not think that also want to go out overseas .
Only my younger brother has gone to Hawaii .
We grew up in a hot spring ground .
Therefore we want to rest with a hot spring .
Therefore we do not think that want to rest with the vacation .

But we like the sea very much .
We want to live in the place where the sea is seen in the future .
I will live in the place where the sea is seen in the future .
This is my last dream !
I live in the place where lake is seen now .
I can look at the sea through the lake .
I am very glad that .
I am pleasure to go to the lake every day for jogging .

I started a new trip .

07/04/(23/16)

A person dies someday .
I also die someday .
You also die someday .
I am gazing at death .
I am fearing death .
I feel the time when must grow 1 step now .
Why ?
I experienced the feeling of a female for the first time .
I lost coolness temporarily .
I disliked myself the time very much .
May be males will can not understand the feeling .
But I knew the grief of the female .
I knew the love of the female .
I knew the back of the heart of the female .
I stopped requiring it already because my body made immunity .
I am not defeated to the temptation anymore so .
And I became a grown-up through the female 1 step .

And I advance more .
My view also became big 1 step .
I want to gaze at death so now .

Let's crush the organization which went bad !

07/05/(12/37)

Enterprise morals of Japan became worst situation .
Why did those become worst ?
The enterprise morals were excellent to before the bubble begins .
But the enterprise morals had fallen off already when the bubble began .
Therefore they were able to invest it in the stocks and land .
They could not invest it in the stocks and land if they are a previous enterprise .
On earth , What was breaking out ?
Bureaucracy entered the company by utilizing a power .

The power ..
Bureaucracy inspects all the banks every month .
A bank had 3 occurrences of bad loan .
The Bureaucracy said to the bank .
You must accept 3 people of bureaucracy ( It is enter a company ) .
First they joined a company as the executive .
They became want the post of the manager gradually .
And they got the post of the manager after all .
They erased the people who repel from all the societies .

The enterprise of Japan are increased the company employee manager .
They can not understand the enterprise because are not an entrepreneur originally .
The most troublesome people have made the system in Japan .
Why were they able to make the system ?

Because education of Japan bad .
Student can not give one's opinion to the teacher .
Therefore Japanese can not discuss .
Old person were able to live by obeying strong people .
But Japanese changed recently .
Sense of values of youngsters changed so .

The organization are eliminating the youngsters who resist now .
The youngsters and the organization are fighting in Japan now .

Are you polishing your face ?

07/10/(22/52)

The people of the world are still not seen a new way .
It will be seen a new way soon .
Many persons are making clear it now .
I respect the scholars .
The scholars are going after the dream .
Oh ! Wonderful !

Power of a person can not change a big swirl .
But power of the people of the world can change the big swirl .
The person lives for future .
The person drags the recollection in the past eternally .

Why is the person alive ?
Why is the person lonely ?

Is your brain soft ?
Dangerous signal is blinking if your brain begins to become hard already .
Do you have curiosity ?
Do you have a dream ?
Do you continue a challenge ?
Do you get excited ?
Do you love someone continually ?
Is your body maintaining health ?

The person must have responsibility to the face of oneself if s/he passes 40 years old .
Heart of the person influences on the face as it is from 40 years old .
A person who becomes a dirty face .
A person who becomes a more beautiful face than young .

The body suddenly becomes weak if a male passes 40 years old .
Women say that the male of the middle age is lewd .
The body awakes to a sexual appetite if a woman gives birth to a baby .
The women of most seem to can hold down the desire because have a pride .
But abnormal phenomenon is breaking out recently .
It is reflected just like the end of century .

I seem to be falling in hell now .

07/12/(20/01)

I can still not take misty .
Yes , I admit that did a serious experience .
I was a shock greatly about the imagination of sexual desire by the Internet .
I am not regretting this experience .
I became more prudent to the males than before by this experience .

Why ?

I looked the desire of the males and females .
I was going to understood the time .

My heart returned coolly by time .
And I looked back the time .
The cool eyes were seen that only comically .
But my brain is not able to become completely clean still .
My brain can not digest the experience so .
I do still not know the means that solve it .
I am distressing merely while my brain digest the experience .

Hell came after paradise now .

Please permit me !

07/13/(01/13)

My Pegasus ! Please you are watching me long time from this !

I have done that is foolish .
Therefore I will fall in hell while being satisfied now .
I might have scarred the heart of a person .
I think that the person is crying probably .
My heart painful when I think it now .

I must talk translation .
I know ,,,I know .....
But I can not comfort the heart of the person .
Why ?
I can not fulfill the hope of the person .
I was scared of that becomes this someday .
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13 year-old boy cried for parts with me when I am 15 year-old .
I did not think that he is only a friend .
But I exchanged the diary of each other with him for 1 year .
Why ?
I was liking him probably .
But I did not feel love to him at all .
But his love was serious .
I was a favorite very much at the time .
Therefore I attired like a princess at the time .
Therefore I was satisfied with many boys are admiring .
And I stopped meeting him as I do not say a good-by word to him .
He was waiting for then 1 year .
His friends and his parents came to the request as I help him .
I was going to finish it in good shape .
I said beautiful words .
I was intoxicated by the words .
His face did not rise while his face looked to under .
And he began to cry .

I replaced heart by his tears .
I can not forget his tears eternally .
And I stopped contact with all the boys .
I stopped that I attire like the princess .

I swore to God .
All men do not cry for me once again !
I do not want to scar all men once again !

I understands such my foolishness when I think it .
I broke this promise now .
I am meditating inside of darkness patiently now .
I will crawl up someday from this darkness .
But I want to continue meditation long a little in this darkness now .

A encouragement .

07/13/(13/16)

It is noon now .
Blue sky is lighting the surroundings brightly .
My heart will be bouncing If I am usually .
My heart of now can not bounce .
My eyes can see only darkness .

My Pegasus !
What kind of male be I expecting on earth ?
What kind of male is the male of inside of my dream .
I am going after the male long time by the Internet .
I am going after a perfect male long time .
My friends are also going after a perfect male long time .
I can not express the male by a word .
But only the Pegasus knows it .
Because the Pegasus is my other self .
The word is not necessary to us .
My Pegasus ! What kind of male is the male ?


The Pegasus said .

You met many people in the trip .
You learned the people of many countries .
You are growing certainly .

You had many favorite country .
And you also had many disagreeable country at the same time .

You had the male statue that likes .
And you also had the male statue that dislikes at the same time .

You have the male statue that likes already .
You only are irritated because the male does not appear still .

Therefore you good if you wait for the time quietly .
Glory will visit someday to you without fail !

My heart shone flashingly .
The light circulates my blood and gave energy to my body .
My heart can calm by the word of the Pegasus always .

The Pegasus cried out .

You do not have the free time that you are feeling blue .
You must walk before even if drag the heavy foot .
Time does not wait for your recovery .
Let's begin to walk !

My sense of values .

07/17/(12/42)

The entrepreneurs are great !

An entrepreneur said to his son one word before dies .
" I want to do a job only again ."
His job is establishes a company and the company gets on triggering .
Only he is unable to load the company to triggering .
But his will is taken over by the company eternally .

The entrepreneur like a job most of all really .
They are working for 24 hours .
They are indispensable meal, sports, reading, sleep etc. .
But their brain is thinking globally about the company continually .

They don't have rest .

The job is rest for them .
My father was an entrepreneur also .
I am looking at the father and felt manliness always .
I have been seen the male statue that I am going after at last .
I understood the translation that I like the job than my love , a vacation very much .
My parents worked until die .
I have felt the parents pitifully .
And I understood the heart of the parents for the first time now .
The parents were never pitiful .
Because the parents liked the job most of all .

The company employee are easy .
They are thinking the job of only oneself continually .
They need not to think all ( the develop , sales, accounting , personnel affairs etc. ).
They work only a fixed time .
I know full the people who dislikes a job really .
They are enjoying the vacation always .
I will not understand this eternally !!
Because I could not have an interest in the vacation entirely .
May be surrounding people will think me pitifully .
Ha ha ha ... It was the same as what I felt to the parents .

I also knew myself .
I am not ashamed of this case already .
I have been seen my ideal .
The person have a various sense of values .
I also have one sense of values .
I have the friends of a various sense of values of course .
Yes , I am also sharing the people of a various sense of values .
It is my friends. But my sweetheart is special for me !
Therefore I will search the sweetheart of the same sense of values .
May be I think that can't find the male .

A woman said .
You wait leisurely .
I waited leisurely .
Therefore I got the highest male .

Soul of my parents comes soon .

07/19/(22/09)

Japanese has the abnormal event of fruit .
Japanese is not Christian .
But Japanese have the Christmas .
Japanese is not Buddhist .
But Japanese go to a temple by Bon Festival .
Japanese is not Shinto .
But Japanese go to a shrinea in a new year .
Japanese go to there without having resistance anything every year .
I go to there without also thinking anything .

It is Bon Festival ( Japanese " OBON ") in Japan soon .
It is people enshrine an ancestral soul and pray for the repose of the ancestral soul .
I will pray for the repose of my parents soul .
Remains of my parents are in the temple of Kagoshima .
I can not go to the temple frequently because the temple far .
Therefore I take a photograph the mortuary tablet of the temple and am decorating it in my room .
I open the window of before the photo first if I get up every day .
I want to show the view of outside to the parents every day .
I am giving full water and fruit and sweet to the parents always .
May be I think that the parents don't feel hungry always .

The parents will come in my place soon .
I am impatient it .
This year , I did a various experience .
The parents come early always .
Only the parents know the growth for my 1 year !
Only the parents know the change for my 1 year !
I am expecting the word of the parents .
Because the word gives new light to me always .

The Sea and the Pegasus .

07/23/(17/09)

Sea is calling me .
Please come here early !
I want to come in contact with you .
I am the friend of your heart always .
I know that you are looking intently at me always .
I know that you want to meet me always .
Because I am watching you always .
I am telling about you with your Pegasus sometimes .
The Pegasus said to me .
She loves the sea long time .
She gazes at one of distantly sometimes with one's eyes half-closed .
I know what she is gazing at .
I envy the Sea sometimes .
I said to the Pegasus .
I am envying the Pegasus always .
Because the Pegasus is together with her always .
I also want to stay with her always .
I am waiting for that she comes here .

And the Sea asked it me .
Which is important for you ?

I replied to the Sea .
The Sea ! You look like my mother !
Your arm very soft .
I become lonely and cry soon .
I want to treat damaged heart in the arm .
The Pegasus looks like my father .
Arm of Pegasus very stout .
I feel solitude and want love soon .
I want to feel love in the arm .
I am necessary both arms now .

I go to the sea without fail soon .
Would you welcome me ?

She stepped forward it .

07/28/(14/29)

My Pegasus ! I lost the desire that searches love .
Because I knew that my love does not bear fruit .
I know that it is very difficult that I search a real sweetheart in the Internet .
My friend went out to meet the sweetheart of Europe .

She went out overseas repeatedly .
She got married to Japanese with 21 years old .
The time , she was a university student .
Her husband was working at a trading company .
Therefore they lived almost overseas .
Her husband flirted with a white woman in Usa .
She divorces with him and has returned with 1 person in Japan .
He got married to the woman soon .
She did not know that he got married .
She was sometimes meeting him even then .
A certain day she said that she did over again with him .
And she knew that he got married already .
She stopped having an interest at all in the males of Japan .
She thought that does not want to get married once again .

She taught to me well about the males of the foreign country .
She knew the males of the foreign country well already .
She got acquainted with a male in the Internet .
And she is thinking marriage now .
And she went out in his house of Europe yesterday .

She said to me .
I will meet the male who gave the courage that I step forward to me .

I must continue the trip still .

07/28/(15/57)

Who decides the fate of a person ?
A person wants to be tied with the person that loves it .
A person has various desire .
The desire changes with the era .
The love is same also .
But I want to search immortal love .
Ideal of the woman high and the woman does not make compromise .
But ideal of the man high and the man makes compromise .
The woman and the man differ it .
I think that that is all the men .
I have not met the male who feels the difference still .
She who went out in Europe was saying also same .
But she felt like meeting a man .
Did her heart change ?
I was a shock very much .
Why was she able to believe the man ?

I am waiting for her return .
Does she will come back and attach a damage ?
Or does she will come back and determine marriage ?

My Pegasus said .
You and she differ .
May be she worried it than you more .
Therefore she was able to find the man who believes than you .
Because she became necessary that believes gradually .
But you are not becoming necessary that believes still .
She ended the trip now .

You too young still .
Therefore you can not have self-confidence .
You must know about the men of the foreign country still .
Therefore you must continue the trip still with me .
I attached to you .
I will give a wonderful present to you when the trip ends probably .
You will know that trip ended the time .