I want to be looking at the sea .

05/02/(22/00)

Summer comes in here soon .
I did not go to the swimming pool in the sea after all last year .
But I jogged to the change of the swimming pool in every day .
I find the lake last year and jogging became more enjoyable .
I was doing jogging in a stadium the year before last .
I swam every day in the swimming pool of the stadium .
The swimming pool is free !
I was able to play tennis in the stadium .
The tennis is free also of course !
But I have still not played tennis at all .
Ha ha ha ....
I played tennis every week when I live in Tokyo .
The tennis was pay of course !
Tokyo was all pay !
Village is free almost !
I have moved in the village 2 years ago and surprised because the leisure institution is almost free .

I want to go to the sea this year .
I have deep recollection in the sea .
I think that I wrote it to this diary before .
I had to be absent from an university for 1 year because my mother died .
I assisted the company of my father.
I did not want to believe that the mother died . I could not forget the mother day by day .
I drive my car at night and went to the sea every day .
I took 2 hours by the car from my house to the sea .
I sang the same song while seeing the sea in the car always .
The song was the poem that the child offers to the mother who died .
I remember the sight like yesterday's even now .
I remember clear the sea even now .
I want to slip the time now .
I want to be looking at the sea long time with 1 person of me .

My struggle for the love to my mother .

05/03/(15/48)

I want to recall that time .
I want to confirm the weight of the love to my mother .
I went to the scene with Pegasus .
I load the hand , chin on the handle and was looking at the sea .
I said to the sea .
Is the mother looking at me now ?
I want to talk with the mother now .
Can I talk with the mother now ?
I want to meet the mother now .
Can I look at the mother now ?
I want to know the feeling of the mother in just before that dies .
The mother died while consciousness does not return in a university hospital .

I heard by phone that the mother fainted from the father .
The telephone was 1 week after I begin to commute to my university .
I get on at a line train at night for 8 hours and arrived at the station of a town .
And I went to my house by the car of a friend .
I returned to the house for the first time in one month .
A current flowed to my back when I entered into the house .
I felt it subconsciously that the mother died .
I do not understand why I felt such even now .
I heard that the mother got hospitalized to the university hospital just now from the father .
I get on to the car of the friend for 2 hours and went to the hospital .
I arrived at midnight .
The mother was losing consciousness already .
I saw the face of the mother for the first time in one month .
I ran about in the hospital for 3 months from the day .
The mother always caused the spasm at midnight .
I ran to take ice because the mother becomes a high temperature soon .
I put in the hand in ice .
My hand froze hard soon .
I was wearing a red shirt and red jeans always .
Nurses called an ambulance about me .
Incise the throat and pipe entered because the mother could not do the processing of the edge .
I insert a tube into the pipe and inhaled the edge of the mother .
I was afraid that the tube sticks on the wall always .
Because the mother struggled to seem painful .
I changed the clothes of the mother always .
I wiped the body of the mother always .
I got rid of the dirt of the mother always .
I took care of the mother always .
The mother in the time was my baby !
I called to the mother always .
My mother ! Is my voice heard ?
Face of the mother did not change .
The mother did not answer it eternally .
I believed the miracle that the mother revives .

But the miracle did not break out !

I saw the smiling face of the mother last .
The mother looks at me and laughed so .
It was as if the mother thanked for me .

I did not cry until last before the mother .
I think the mother now and be crying ......

People must climb a big mountain now .

05/08/(20/35)

World is moving dynamically now .
Wall of the world is about to break by communism destruction .
Population distribution of the world changes largely .
Population of the advanced country decreases and the population of the developing country continues to increase .
People who live in the advanced country are changing to the people of the developing country from the people of the country .
Anyone can not stop it already .
Why ?
The people must pass the way of the process of the evolution of thea human being .
This stopped finishing with theory .

Japan is not accepting the immigrant of the world still .
But decrease of the population of the child is going on quickly in Japan .
And Japan becomes the country of an old person soon .
Therefore Japan also becomes must accept the immigrant of the world soon .
Human being can not stop only time !
Human being is not God so !

The crime does not break out because education is low .
The crime breaks out because it is poor .
Can the human being overcome this poorness ?

People of the world gaze at this wall and be thinking now .
People also will understand the answer someday because people understood the problem probably !

People will build up the greatness of the power of love last so .
The human being will ruin if people do not build up the greatness of the power of love last .

Why ?

05/08/(21/03)

Why can the person kill the others ?
I do not want to see the death of a person anymore .
Life of the person transient .
Others do not have the right that takes the life .
I want more treating the life carefully .

Why is the person indifferent the unhappiness of the others ?
I learnt it when I must not laugh the unhappiness of the others from an eternal master .
And I learnt it when pray the happiness of the others .
I learnt the society from my father first .
I learnt such manners that a woman lives alone from my mother next .
And I learnt life from the mentor last .
Thank you ! My father , My mother , the mentor !

Why can the person say the abuse of the sweetheart in the past ?
I dislike the person who say the abuse of the sweetheart in the past .
I do not want to have the sweetheart in the past .
Because I want to have the sweetheart only 1 .

Why cannot the person live with only the recollection in the past ?
I want to be living only with the recollection in the past now .
Why is not that good ?

I can not crawl up still .

05/08/(21/40)

My Pegasus ! I can still not get out from the blind alley .
My heart settled because I was able to soak in the recollection of the parents slowly .
Thank you for your kind help .
I was able to confirm love .

The Pegasus say while laughing kindly .
Please think it thoroughly now !
You must not answer it incompletely now .
You seem to have become 1 step grown-up .
A person seems to become 1 step grown-up when s/he stands in a cliff abyss .
You are standing in a cliff abyss now .
I was looking at the place where you are crying patiently .
You were crying aloud .
You were crying out aloud because wanted to discharge grief so .
I understood your pain well .
And your heart cleared up by your parents but you have not found the answer still .

Please think more !
I am always sitting after you .
I will give peace of mind to you if you are tired .

To the sweetheart in my future !

05/11/(23/19)

I don't escape from the love anymore .
I had the courage that also continues the trip for the sweetheart in future .
I will not give up until I find out you .
I have overcome many wave for the trip .
I had felt your shade .
But the shade disappeared from my front soon .
And only darkness is remaining before me always .
I lost the power that goes after you .
I clung to my parents and my Pegasus always .

I have not met the male of a foreign country at all .
Therefore I have not seen the eyes of the male of a foreign country .
I have not talk with the male of a foreign country of course .
I told with the males of many foreign countries for the first time on the Internet .
And I was going to knew the males of a foreign country .
Ha ha ha ...
But I still don't know the male of a foreign country actually .
I can not imagine the male of a foreign country .

I have still not met you .
I am expected to can not imagine you .
But only my imagination is swelling selfishly .
I am thinking about you always .
Ah ! I can not escape from the cyber-male already .
And I give up that I escape from you now .

You are an alien entirely for me .
I want to transmit love to you even from this .
Therefor I also will write love poem for you !
How do you feel if you read this poem ?
But I don't write radical poem anymore .
Ha ha ha ...I seem to have amazed many friends .
I send love story to you who can not meet .

Believing that my love reaches you someday .
Load love to you !

My life .

05/14/(13/25)

I like one-sided love .
And I can go after the male of my ideal.
Ha ha ha ...
Because I such a feeling that parting visits if I get love .
I want to be staying in my dream forever .

I have not resented my life .
And I will not resent my life even from this .


Rain falls to my body coldly .
I resent only misfortune .
A person is a sad creature .
But past relax to the eyelashes kindly .
Life is a mysterious thing ....


I am losing the dream of love always .
My dream far still .
But I have the dream .


Wind rages to my body severely .
I lost the dream that does not become satisfactory .
A person is a delicate creature .
But future smile with a look of expectation .
Life is a glad thing ....


I might be enjoying my life .
I am walking the life that myself understood .
Therefore I may be satisfied with the life of now .

Love falls to my body brilliantly .
My heart pours the glad tears privily .
A person is a lovely creature .

Aaa ... Life may be an enjoyable thing .

The outlet .

05/24/(23/58)

Shocking event broke out in Japan .
A Japanese male became penpal with a Japanese woman on the Internet .
He became favorite her selfishly .
She stopped penpal with him because she became terrible him .
He got angry and requested that please kill her into BBS of the Internet .
The males of other Japanese saw it and tried to kill her .
The police arrested the two males .
I hear this news and not surprised .
Why ?
Japanese women know that such type exists in a part of Japanese male .
Therefore Japanese women think that don't want to related with such male .
Ha ha ha ...I am also watching out such a male most !

Prostitution of the Internet is increasing .
Part of married man is extorting prostitution from the girl of the minor who got acquainted in the Internet .
The police are arresting the males now of course !
Japan changed .
The police could not arrest such males before .
Japanese women very mortifying because were the outlet for sex of the males .
I know that the girls of Asia are the outlet for sex of the males of a part of country .
I sad as the same Asian .

World Cup .

05/25/(00/15)

World Cup is held after 1 week .
Camp of the soccer teams of many countries are existing in Kyushu .
Topic of the soccer teams seems to spread also in Kyushu little by little .
Ticket of the game of Japan is not remaining already .
Japanese almost bought it .
Youngsters of Japanese are looking forward to World Cup very much now .
I will watch with TV because Fukuoka does not have the game .
I want to expect a good game .

I go out to the trip of the sea with you from this .

05/25/(22/57)

I want to go to the sea in summer with you .
Ah ! Where do you live now ?
How much is your height ?
How much is your weight ?
Is your face a beautiful face ?
Or is your face a pretty face ?
Or is your face a manly face ?
Can I see your face someday ?
Or can not I see your face eternally ?
Ha ha ha ...I am not necessary the answer still .
You are the male who I made in my imagination selfishly .
Therefore you are only mine !
How are you doing now ?
You may be favorite the sea probably .
Because we will live near the sea in the future .

Male will search a nice woman in the beach .
Woman will wait for the male in the beach .
Sweetheart will reconfirm love in the beach .
Children will be impressed with the most beautiful sea in this world .
Old person will visit the sea of the last visit ground for the recollection make of this world .

Human being has discarded all the dirt in the sea .
Human being must not soil the sea already !
Human being will repay for a person's kindness in the sea .

Oh ! My Pegasus ! Please convey to him .
I want to go to the sea with him .
I want to paint the more various sea for him .
The Pegasus ! Please take us to the trip of the various sea !
I want to touch the beauty of the sea once again .
I want to show the highest sea to him .

The Pegasus cried out smilingly !
Let's go out to the trip of the sea !

Let's sell also you with the Auction !

05/30/(19/54)

I will buy the goods that you want to sell .
I will sell the goods that you are searching .
Please read here about the detailed !

1. My company !
2. Introduction of the service .
3. Trade substitution by the Auction .

World Cup from tomorrow .

05/30/(22/20)

Japanese feels World Cup nearly for the first time .
But the World Cup still not rising in Japan .
Because Japanese team is weak .
Therefore Japanese is not expecting win .

It was World Cup of 8 years ago that Japanese rose most .
Professional soccer ( J.league ) was started in Japan .
And Japanese expected that the Japanese team goes to World Cup .
But the popularity fell because the team could not go to World Cup .

World Cup started .

05/31/(18/15)

Fight of the hot males is started from today .
How women look at them ?
I do not know how males look at them .
But I know that males love the sports very much .
Women do not love the sports much .
I am interested in the sports that super star exists .
I want to expect that a super star appears in the World Cup .

I wrote a letter to a super star at the time of the child only once .
He took a gold medal with a Olympic game .
I did not like his game until it .
And I dislike also the game after the game becomes weak .
Ha ha ha ...

I like jogging most .
I like runs than see the game .

I like see only the major league .
Why ?
Because the super star is existing in major league now .
The super star good because replies to the expectation of the supporter .

A super star .

05/31/(18/22)

He ran while fluttering the hair .
His sweat flowed to the top to the hair .
The sweat was scattered in the air whenever the hair works .
And the sweat shone in the air .
The sweat of his face also shone .
He looked good on the sweat .
Women were fascinated with the sweat of his face .
And the women saw his eyes .
The women were surprised !
The women felt manliness to the brightness of his eyes .

His thigh stout .
The women yearn for the thigh of a stout male .
His arm stout .
The women yearn for the arm of a stout male .
His chest stout .
The women yearn for the chest of a stout male .
The women yearn for a stout male so .
And the women expect that the stout male defends herself .
Nnn ! Delicious !

The women thought .
What wonderful eyes !
The women had not seen such eyes until now .
And the women became his captive instantly .
The women knew a real man by him .
And the women began to search the man like to him .
Ah ! I want the man like to him !

The women imagine .
His nice voice .
His pretty lips .
His long foot .
His slim leg .
His thick chest .
His soft hair .
His sensitive finger .

And the women want to become the woman of his liking .
Please instruct the woman of your liking !